I want a cat
so i can be entertained
and happy
and laugh at the silly things he does
give him a unique name
like
Acorn.... Flopsy... Hotlips... Puddin... Scrwny.. Smidget


is it weird that the theme song to Jurassic Park makes me want to cry?

On my walk today.. for a good hour.. in the "tornado" winds.. listening to music.. thinking.. i went through every emotion possible.. cried.. laughed.. danced.. sat to contemplate.. blah blah blah.. cuz music makes me think.. emotionally..

I hate that i want to eat so so so so so bad
but i am not NECESSARILY hungry
but i haven't eaten a lot
but then again sometimes i lie to myself about what i ate
so i really dont know
but nothing seems appetizing
and its excruciating
getting up.. wandering the kitchen.. opening the pantry. the fridge.. even though i know exactly whats everywhere.. at any given second of the day.. moreso than anyone who lives here

I do want to go to Chinatown
i associate it with wandering.. exploring.. getting curiously fascinated and disgusted at the same time at their array of foods and their wrinkled old people smiling with no teeth.. yet still doing their best to sell.. shouting incomprehensibly LOUD and FAST like the announcer at an Auction.... wandering in anime stores for my brothers and finding all kinds of cute little trinkets and cartoony animals... Pokey Sticks and the Panda Bear snacks filled with strawberry or chocolate cream... stiting around the big round table with my cousins and aunt/uncle ordering all kinds of delicious hot chinese food and spinning the lazy susan in the middle of the table to get what i wanted.. the hot tea that was soo tasteless but soo addicting.. DimSum with my grandma where she would ask what every single thing was. and order pretty much every other thing even octopus and all kinds of curious foods so our table was filled with little chinese snacks-steamed, fried, baked, etc.

I also want to go back to South America
explore the jungle
get lost
go on an adventure
slid down the muddy hills and tumble into the river
blah blah blah