STUPUD SAD SONGS

Crickets!
Here i go again...

love by ~laurapora on deviantART

I cant help but wonder if I will ever be the one someone sings about...

At the same time, I was listening to a book on tape on the way to the zoo today which provided me with some pretty good advice and/or deep insight...

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What a book... what a man... what crazy logic.. yet what sense he makes!

The first bit reminds me of how much romantic couples and movies are not good for my soul or my heart or my thoughts...

Allie and Noah ( The Notebook )
Sam and Andrew ( Garden State )
Penny Lane and Russel (Almost Famous)
Julia and Robbie (Wedding Singer)

...That love is not real. I wish it were. But it is all fabricated. That kind of love... that kind of devotion...

There are many kids movies and stories that parents try to stop their 6 year olds from watching... unconscious evil or whatnot being imprinted on their mind....

Really, the dangerous movies are ones like The Notebook, The Holiday...... All of those lovely romantic movies. They can ruin the lives of normal people as we concisely try to turn those movies into real life... giving us false hope that love will be that way... that boys will seek you out... that boys will serenade you... that boys will stare at you in that way it seems as though there is nowhere they'd rather be and no one they'd rather be with.... that boys do serenade you, not just to seduce you, but because they feel compelled to, they are moved to....

Mannnnnnnnnnnnnn

I find myself sometimes shutting others out, afraid to move forward so I shut the door on them... yet at the same time, I wait hopefully and eagerly at the other side of the door, waiting for someone to knock it down, for someone to care enough to search for the key and drag me out... save me from myself..


Same with stupid lovey songs... They take me away to a alternate reality where poeple do care... where poeple MIGHT care about me in that sort of way.
The songs that tell us how love is supposed to feel... and we find ourselves waiting and wanting that feeling for real.... Set up high expectations and dashed hopes...

Bright Eyes is my life sucker...

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And then Incubus, "I Miss You" melts me every time....



And then from "Wedding Singer" ... Adam Sandler's serenade



And then the Red Junpsuit Apparatus..





How can you listen to these songs and NOT be blown away..... be swept away in the emotion. the feeling....

Alone by ~Diabolow on deviantART.

AND HOW COME I LET SO MANY OTHER THINGS DETERMINE MY LIFE?
..... I just fear of being alone all my life... although it is all i have ever known, I would like to know what it is like to be loved and wanted...

Snapshot of a memory...

child with ice-cream by ~bluind on deviantART

Warm summer evenings... Sunlight fades away to dusk...
Delightfully exhausted after a day of running and frolicking through the sprinklers, I sink down into the lush green grass in my backyard. I watch the clouds lazily drift by in between the branches of the towering pine trees. I reach down by my sides and run the long, cold slender grass between my fingers....


teeth in the grass by ~ypsilanti on deviantART

Later, after the hand-cranked ice cream is ready, I happily (and sloppily) lick away at my heaping bowl of the cold, delicious, chocolaty treat. Every other mouthful is slightly tinged with tiny droplets of the salty water that must have seeped into the can during cranking. The sweet mesquite smell of the grilled chicken on the BBQ lingers in the air as I listen to the laughter of my parents and their friends is soon drowned out by the soft singing of Phil Collins

When I'm feeling blue, all I have to do
Is take a look at you, then I'm not so blue
When you're close to me, I can feel your heart beat
I can hear you breathing in my ear
Wouldn't you agree, baby you and me got a groovy kind of love

I close my eyes and begin to sway to the music, forgetting all about my ice cream melting on the porch as I twirl around until I fall dizzy back into the grass...
Now, as i look up, between the towering pine trees i see the stars glowing brightly, winking at me..
They know that this won't last...


Starry Night by ~mokatua on deviantART

Scent-sational memories...

Coming from reading the book...

Smell: Chlorine...

Wet by ~Bluwi on deviantART

I am transported.. back to the pool in Vancouver, WA. Skittering around in my hot pink bathing suit with black polka dots and a little black tutu. I learned to swim there, evolving from blindly kicking myself around the pool with my head deep underwater and my bum in the air... The crystal blue-green water of the pool always shimmered and shivered in anticipation of the next child to jump into its comfort. Bounding off the diving board, leaving it thunking behind me as I splashed into the cool water below. Suddenly the happy, squeals and delighted screams of the little ones in the shallow end disappeared, muted by the soft rush of the enveloping me... Coming up for air, flinging my hair back like Ariel in the little mermaid.... For a time, i refused to kick my legs when i swam. I swam, kicking them both in unison, as though connected, as though they were a tail... pushing my way to the bottom of the pool and settling down on the bottom, content as a sea star...

Book Report, Take 2

Wow. I read a fun book tonight... (insomnia does NOT rock my world...)
I thought it was going to be a silly filler book.. one that did not require any thinking.
It turns out that it had so many true points..


What Flavor is Your Personality? by Dr. Allan Hircsh M.D.

It is very interesting, but true, how the kinds of food can reveal who you are. All of his facts are supported and proven by many studies that have been carried out by him and the people at The Smell & Taste Treatment and Research Foundation.

There was a test... asking about your favorite snack food... from there it supposedly determined some bits of who you are...
There was a choice between
--Pretzels--Potato Chips--Tortilla Chips--Cheese Curls--Snack Crackers--Meat--

I chose Pretzels... and the description was pure me!
"Lively... easily bored with the same old routine...much pretzels and forget about dinner... flirty...always looking for new adventures...overly trustworthy and vulnerable..."

And then the ice cream test based on your favorite flavor of ice cream
Double Chocolate Chunk--Banana Cream Pie--Butter Pecan--Vanilla--Chocolate Chip--Strawberries and Cream

Photo from thekitchen.com

Double Chocolate Chunk...
"life of the party...may have grown up but still a kid at heart... loves center of attention..easily seduced..does not seek leadership but prefers to follow the lead of others..."

It then went on to discuss other interesting studies that were done

The Pumpkin Pie by ~smirkley on deviantART

1. Scents that sexually arouse men
---These were determined by penile blood flow and arousal.
The study was done in 1995, they used 30 odors...
Pumpkin Pie and Lavendar: 40% increase in arousal
Black Licorice and Donuts: 32% increase in arousal
Pumpkin Pie and Donut: 20% increase in arousal
AND down at the bottom...
Cranberry Sauce: 2%
along with baby powder...

From DeviantArt

2. Scents that sexually arouse women
---These were determined by
The study was performed in 1998, they used the same 30 odors...
Good & Plenty candy and Cucumber: 13% increase in arousal
Baby Powder: 13% increase in sexual arousal
Good & Plenty candy and Banana Nut Bread: 12% increase in sexual arousal
Lavender and Pumpkin Pie: 11% increase in sexual arousal
AND down at the bottom (Women, unlike men, actually showed a DECREASE in sexual arousal to certain scents)
Cherry: -18%
Charcoal Barbecue: -14%
Male Colognes: -1%

These studies, as mentioned above, were conducted by the Smell and Taste Treatment and Research Foundation.


Other interesting things proven by them...

a fine glass of wine by ~screwyro on deviantART

1. Wine: sexy.... Beer and Hard Liquor: NOT sexy
... It has to do with the glasses. The long stem and deep bowls filled with liquid subconsciously remind us of male and female genitalia.
... Also, the way we hold the wine glasses may be suggestive of erotic caresses.

The world is your oyster by *mad1dave on deviantART

2. Link between Seafood, Scent and Sexual Arousal
Apparently, the female sexual odor is slightly salty and, as a result, may subconsciously remind people of the sea... or seafood
This makes sense when looked at the folklore that men are attracted to seafood and oysters. They tend to link the smell and taste with sexual arousal and desire...
....no more explanation needed....

Smell the flowers by ~OmegaStock on deviantART

3. Childhood Memory, Nostalgia and smells...
People that were born around 1930, link certain odors with their childhood:
--flowers--meadow--hay--burning leaves--honeysuckle--
Those born between 1960 and 1970 linked the following odors:
=products such as= Pez_Play Dough=Automobiles=gasoline_car engines_
Those born after 1970 tended to link the these smells:
~mosquito repellents~chlorine~cleaning solutions~
...I hope that the shift in scents doesn't reflect a change in society's values.. although i fear it may be true..

Grass. by ~lilosxstitchs on deviantART

----> Another interesting find <--- those born before 1960, refereed to the smell of fresh cut grass with pleasant and happy thoughts Those born between 1960 and 1979, have negative associations with the smell of fresh cut grass-> most likely due to having to mow their own lawn.