im ready

I feel deflated
ready to go back
its lost its luster here
it would be better
i suppose
if i had people to play with
im sorry that i am in need of interesting things..
or at least interesting people and i can MAKE interesting things happen.
one more day
and one more night
and i fly back to the states
im not EXACTLY excited.. but i am not EXACTLY sad..
i like it here
some things..
but i am ready to go back
back to him
back to the beach
back to where i feel needed and wanted
until we cross country to San Deigo.. ?
?

will it work out?
we will see
i am petrified
i am scared
but i want it to work

and i want some Baileys for my cocoa