it was so hard to come back to hendersonville.
it didnt help that every other song that came on the radio (when I was able to GET radio reception) was somber.. sad..
so i rolled in sunday around 5:30..
after a wonderful weekend away from it all
with my parents
baked a batch of cookies (which my dad and i ate with gusto)
2 loaves of bread (both gone now due to my dad and i)
shared a lovely bottle of wine at a lovely Olive Garden restaurant where my mom had entirely too much wine (and so did my dad.. in fact he kept trying to fil up MY glass of wine just to keep my mom from having more..)
kayaking
old home videos that made me smile.. bringing backa ll the happy memories of life as a child.. of Kyle.. of Grandpa and Grandma.. everyone..
going through my grandma's paintings (TONS TONS of them) --i got a naked man sketch.. hes quite good looking too ;)
warmth. wii.. walking along the Savannah River.. frozen peanut M&Ms.. Cinnamon Toast Crunch.. free laundry.. need i go on?

BUT i did buy a plane ticket to go down to see JP.. the 19th-22nd.
its what is keeping me going

AND i got a text today from a friend in Asheville who asked me to go out with him Thursday night.. but then again this is the same dude i made plans with 3 different times and every time something happened (he had to go to work last minute,.. snow storm...)
but i cant help but get excited

and i want to go out soo bad.. let loose.. get a drink.. meet people.. feel like im worthy of hanging out with

work is going going going.. we had 7 kids today.. lots of snotty noses and wiping food all over the table, chairs, shirts, pants, chins, eyelashes... a couple that cried unconsolably for mommy.. one girl that is a tad too attached to me whereas if i leave her side she starts bawling and wherever i sit down, she immediately climbs onto my lap.. its wonderful to have someone look up to me so much though.. but i am trying to wean her off me at the same time..
love the baby hugs i get (even if they come with slobber or tears..)