wrapped up in you..

It frustrates me so much that i miss people soo much that dont miss me in return.. or at least they dont seem to.. no signs point to it..
Here i am.. wishing i could be back in Hendersonville/Asheville with 2 people that dont seem to miss me.. no messages no nothing..
one did call at 11:45 at night the day after HE left ME.. even though that last night he was in town he pretty much didnt want to see me.. and i most likely wont see him again before i move to Everett.. if i move
the other, we were supposed to meet up the night before I left, but he had things to do... and wasnt online when he said he would because he was sick..

I get way too wrapped up in people..



Trey Anastasio (from Phish) ~ "Ooooh Child"

such a beautiful song


Everything is still up in the air for the Seattle Trip..
plans are NOT set in stone and keep changing.. Im scared to commit because i dont know how to get to peoples houses.. and figure out how to lug my luggage..
i just need to suck it up
seriously

I did get pulled over by the PoPo the yesterday... they searched my car and everything.. did the pen test where i had to follow it with my eyes.. took out all my stuff and set it out on the side of the road and had their dog sniff through it and the dog almost ate my loaf of cheese bread
mostly it was because i was "swerving" (I was trying to get cds from the bottom of the car) and then busrt into tears to the point i couldnt talk when he came to my window...
apparantly one of my friends had weed in their pocket at one time when they were in my backseat.. and the dog found it.. along with my pipe..
the PoPo didnt get me on that though.. he let it slide (he said something about how South Carolinas not too harsh on that law)
but did get me for no license..
I was playing iwth my nerf gun in my car as i was waiting for my parents to arrive to take me home.,, i was anxious, nervous and upset and needed something to distract me and that was the closest thing.. the Popo came over took it from me and only returned it when he gave me my $285 ticket..