No escaping...

Nothings as loud as the voices that are whispering inside of your head.

I realized that I cannot run away from what I was trying to escape from.
Life is no different. My mind follows me wherever i go. They creep in...

I am still worried about where I will be after my summer camp... Thanks to my parents and other well meaning folks that balk when i say I have no idea where i will be.

I still am not as good of a freind as I know I could be.

The mirror is stil my enemy and my eyes have the uncanny ability to distort reality

I still listen to music,. close my eyes and long to be THERE.. to feel that way...

I still crave human connection and contact and understanding...

I still hvae the urge from deep down to cry.. to kick a wall.. but for no one reason... no one reason that i can place my finger upon atleast

I still wonder what people see when they look at me

I still hate the fact that I feel this way and cant allow myself to just LET GO
(Although.. there are certian times during the day when I am able to...)

Check out this song... It is one that I wish...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZD8Dnd40EF8