Movieeeee and update..

Feast of Love


A movie I want to see...

< There is a story about the Greek Gods; they were bored so they invented human beings, but they were still bored so they invented love, then they weren't bored any longer. So they decided to try love for themselves. And finally, they invented laughter, so they could stand it. >

Morgan Freeman is the best narrator.. I LOVE his smooth, soothing yet confident and all knowing voice..
AND it takes place in Portland, Oregon..

ON another note..
i went to a job interview today
at a preschool
Although I was highly disappointed in the preschool... too confining.. no freedom for me to do what I need or want to do with my kids.. they offered me the job straight away.
I denied.
As i was walking out, I struck up a conversation with a cleaning lady. I explained that I had just graduated from University of Alabama, Early Childhood Education. She looked at me sympathetically...
"Oh honey... You shouldn't subject yourself to places like this. You can do so much better. Go on where you belong. You don't belong here. I can tell. You are a free spirit. Go on and be free where you need to be. But I don't want to see you around here-OR any place like this again..."
It provided me with lots to think about..

I still don't know what I want..
and am scared to know..
Looking tenatively at places to live in Asheville, but chicken out in terms of going to check them out. I love where I am at, though I know deep down I know I will LOVE it even more in Asheville, surrounded by a lot more to offer...
but i dont want to leave a lot of things here..
Express Yourself Studio and Carina.. she needs me... she nearly begged me to stay working with her, offering me a raise and more days.,,,
The cottage.. it is MINE.. I get this sense of relief and peace when i walk in the door.. but no one ever really comes to visit.. so i get lonely
JP.. he doesnt know what he is doing either... we mentioned going to Oregon... but that was just silly talk.. we mentioned him coming with me to Seattle.,.. but that was silly talk.. thats all it is.. silly talk.. about nothing that will be

Oh well..
time will tell what will happen..
what is supposed to happen will happen..
JUST KEEP ON TRUCKIN!