More thoughts...

Perhaps I am trying too hard....
I do try... I call people... text them,,, message them on Facebook... invite them over...
Lots of nothing... lots of empty...
I don't understand what is wrong with me.
The only person that is truly, genuinely happy to see me is my dad. He actually calls me... He wants me to go home... he begs me to play Scrabble with him...
Even at the zoo... I feel ostracized. There are 2 ladies who teach the classes and a lady who is in charge of the volunteers and a boy-man (just turned 22)... And, sure. they are nice enough... but I still can hear the *hush* when i walk past... as they talk amongst each others... hearing the word "intern" and questioning WHY i'm here...
Its not my fault that I am an intern.. I was accepted... I am waiting for directions.. for people to tell me what to do... The lady who actually hired me just kinda dumped me in the education area and told me that this is where I'd be interning... I said "Super!" anddddd started cutting out things and copying things for the teachers.. we eat lunch together..
...But i think i may be starting to grow on them... sometimes... at others times..... I don't know...
BUT...
the man-boy (22 year old) said goodbye to me!!! ^_^ He actually STOPPED, peeked his head in where I was copying 0123430921 copies of papers, and said, "hey!.... Bye!"
AND that was pretty much the highlight of the day...