...soo hard to leave...

AAAAAHH
not good..
but its so beautiful
and making it soo hard to leave...
hes been soooo sooo sooo good to me..
and i dont know why
why me?
what is so special about me?
Is it just that i am next door?
He came by the past two nights.. took me back to his place.. fell; asleep in his arms watching the movie.. and i was on my way back to my bed.. but he said,.. both nights.. "no.. i want you here with me..."
:/
I dont want to leave anymore..
but cant afford it here..

AND my boss keeps asking me to babysit.. so im making money... and working at the studio one a week.. and she wants me to come along with them to Hondurus or Belize so that they can scuba dive and i can play with Orlando.. and then they will give me time to play too..

but i need to go to emily...