why am i so scared to try things that i know will make me happy?

why am i so scared to allow new people into my life?

why do i get sOOOO nervous in person... soo scared of the unknown.. of what others are thinking..

wish someone would care enough to read up... to think.. to wonder.. to want.. to do...
im tired of doing for others
just once
it would be nice for someone to do for me~


i dont want to be so scared to live my life..
please dont let me chicken out...