Hmmm..

Its 2 weeks to my birthday.
Weird..
Does not feel anywhere near summer.. atleast not today.. and not emotionally..
but I am tracking down a therapist to help talk things out.. its been wayyyy too long since i have had a good chat with a neutral person..
I keep having dreams about going back to the treatment center.. and how calming.. relieving.. releasing it is.. the pressure is off. . I HAVE to eat.. I have people to talk to all the time.. all kinds of moral support.. emotional support.. art therapy. .
He leaves tomorrow for his first multi day trip.. I am not too excited to be left alone for the weekend.. at least I have work for the next days to keep me busy,..
We have been watching LOST.. 1st season down.. and in the process of tracking down the 2nd season.,. I like Charlie. LOVE him.. and John Locke.. I have been drawn into the island .. i never thought i would.. but wow..
it really is beautiful here. surrounded by waters.. the rocky, barnacly beaches.. sprinkled with crabs.. the dark, dank forests.. the ground and trees wearing a coat of soft green moss.. all the boats in the harbor.. the smell o the waters..
but prices here.. wow.. im being wiped out just buying groceries.. it does not help that i am only working 3 days a week so far.. but June 21st the summer camp starts to keep me busy.
until then, I had this plan that i dreamt up this morning.. to send out my resume to MANY places in hopes SOMEONE needs help for a month.. but as i walked in the door to Chuch Hill today I got offered to cover for one of the girls.. She also gave me a bag of new clothes... so I will test them out tonight.. who knows.. maybe something will look good on me!!
Rachel.. my bestst friend from back in the day sent me a package the other day loaded with love, smiles and Sponge Bob towels :) MADE MY WEEK!! !They are the kind you put into water and they grow.. I am doing them one per day.. to spread out the fun.. . I miss her.. too mcuh.

heyyyyyyyy

things have been slow
slow
slow
I finally did get to work!! 3 days in a row! But still.. very slow at work too..
I LOVED when customers came in! I was even overjoyed to make a coffee/espresso drink fro them when usually i hateeee it
most of the days there were no customers and i ended up wiping down shelves over and over and organizing and washing windows and sweeping and moping and eating jelly beans nonstop

it WAS very chilly.. cold.. and still is at night and in the morning hours... but atleast the past couple days its been nice and sunny and beautiful during the majority of the day
:)
we did some hiking..

and i know things are going to heat up soon.. in terms of busyness...
I only work Saturday, Sunday Monday from 10 til close or so.. and then 4 days off.
We did go kayaking once so far.. he had one 3 hour trip that i got to accompany him on :)
LOVE it!
soon.. more cusomters will come.. it will be busy-er.. and starting June 21st , i will start the summer camp during the week and then Churchhill on the weekends..
soon.. sooon..