again.. snow day.. though it didnt snow..
i allowed myself to lay down.. finish a movie.. and have an actual BREAKFAST..
the plan was to go for a long walk.. take pictures of the snow. hope that the thrift stores were open.. pop into the library to refresh my books and movies since it would be closed tomorrow
I had just reached the end of Main STreet.. browsing through Mast General STore when i got the call to go into work..
disappointed i couldn't go on my planned walk..
that i would not get that exercise..
that fresh air
when it was so beautifully sunny out

but i packed up my paints, my big plywood slices.. my computer.. the library books/movies (the plan was to escape once things slowed to the library.. get rid of old.. replenish the new...)
and i painted away
and painted
and people kept coming as soon as i had my heart and mind set on going.. as i was turning out the lights and closing up shop-2 times.. people kept coming in..
it wasnt all that bad.. i got to talk to people.. i got to socialize to a degree.. i got to work.. i got to paint..
but no new movies.. no walk.. no exercise.. no
and JP is still happy as ever.. at dinner with his co-worker.. laughing and joking
and i still sad and lonely
just one friend
is all i need.. is that too much to ask?
how do i find someone?

i have this plan.. in my hopes.. to suggest to JP that he come HERE when he gets off the waters on the 31st.. supposedly he has a week off.. and supposedly its going to be boring, etc.
so. ,,, why not come herE? play with me.. we can go visit his freind in Boone.. i can have my happy again.
but im also scared to suggest it that he will cross out the idea. "too expensive" or whatnot
i really dont care if i have to buy the ticket..
does it matter at all that i want HIM..
is that such a ridiculous request?