I got the call today.. from ChildHaven..
No Job.
They found someone else
and it doesnt matter that I was thinking of not taking the job..
I hadnt necessarily blocked it out of my mind
but
i really needed that affirmation
that i can work with kids
that i can get a real job
that i can function in society
that i can be "mainstream"

apparently not

reject after reject after reject.
Maybe working with kids is not for me after all..
what now?