toying with danger..

,mmmm
delicious
beach..
beautiful sunset
toying with dangerous territory..

i go from one to another..
this ones poison is scarier.. another level.. but so intriguing..
i watched today.. in the car..
felt all tingly.. shaky.. heart squeezed.. everything became fuzzy.. dont know if it was because i watched.. because i WANTED to also (he wont ever EVER let me) or because the smell got to me..

but
despite that..
despite everything
ive fallen
hard
and
he helps me too
so
its reciprocal.. and is so good to me
in more ways than ever

in other news..
NOTHIING
except
i realize more and more that i enjoy the danger.. the thrislll. the fun..
but it is so worth it
because i would do anything for him
and im scared for the day he doenst need me anymore..


ALSO
i want a kitty
and i want a job
and i made
RUM BALLS!!
SO SO SO SO FUN!~ :)_
delicious.. chocolatey.. rummy... mmmm..
go do it
try it..

ALSO
tattoo #6.. behind my ear.. stars..
#7 coming soon.. on the other side.. except with a moon as well..