MOVING.. and Romeo and Juliet..

Mannnnn
I cant believe I am actually doing this.. just up and move.. its not like Andalusia, AL will be much be much better job-wise..
but i need Emily.. I really do
But wow..
its starting to hit me..
I cried off and on all day today..
NEVER felt so alone and unwanted... packing up my car.. my LAST DAY here... and no one is around..
HIM And Zack are both working.. I cant get ahold of anyone in Asheville..
SOOO Emotional today-> in a terrible, horrible, no good, very bad way..
thinking of all the things.. piled up..

>Anniversary of Kyle's death
-how he was sOSO SO horrible to me.. but yet he was the one who caught me and told my parents about my eating disorder... and stuck up for me when they got on my case... how i never cried at his "funeral" ... how i looked up to him soo much and all i wanted was his approval.. and never really got it.. tho other people said differently..
>Friend in Newfoundland died last week.. Jackie.. :(
-and i cant attend the funeral because im soo far away.. such an amazing person..
>VERY little money.. less than id ever had in my life.. and that SCARES me
>NO job.. mine here was given away.. but she claims shes more than willing to bring me back if i stay.. she says im the best employee and im also her babysitter.. and shes german.. and i love her.. and she cried when she learned i was leaving.. and her baby gives the best hugs and says my name now nad I can never tell if hes speaking german or baby babble and i was the only one who could put him to sleep-NOT EVEN HIS GRANDPARENTS could do that.. .
>HIM :( no comment.. but i will miss him like no other.. tho i cry and drink over him... a lot.. .
> all of what Asheville has to offer.. head shops.. rainbow kids.. fun bars.. Harayz.. fun people.. Mast Gerenal STore.. Kilwins chocolates... Flat Rock Bakery..
>Mom getting drunk christmastime and telling all my relatives of how i got fired and have no job and going nowhere..
>too many false hopes in terms of job opportunity... why does no one want me? I WILL SOOOO MAKE IT WORTH THEIR TIME!!

more too probaby...
but i need tog et back to my movie..

Mercutio's famous QUEEN MAB speech.. drug effects (I WANT MOLLY!!!).. and fish tank scene.. (SOOO pretty... such a beautifully romantic way to meet... amazing bathroom too :) and he really does look like an angel.. LOVE the "Young Hearts Run Free" dance...LOVE MERCUTIO!!!:)

my lips.. two blushing pilgrims ready stand.. to smooth that rough touch with a tender kiss
palm to palm is holy palmers kiss... O TRESPASS SWEETLY URGED..GIVE ME MY SIN AGAIN!
and the looks on their faces when they realize who the other is.. soo heartbreaking..
"My only love sprung from my only hate!
Too early seen unknown, and known too late!
Prodigious birth of love it is to me,
That I must love a loathed enemy."
"But soft! What light through yonder window breaks?
It is the East, and Juliet is the sun!
Arise, fair sun, and kill the envious moon,
who is already sick and pale with grief
That thou her maid art far more fair than she."
SHE SPEAKS! SPEAK AGAIN BRIGHT ANGEL

such beautiful words...

interesting how everyone is dressed up to represent the entirety of their characters
Romeo: Knight [Juliet's knight and shining armor]
Juliet: Angel [gentle, kind, sweet,pure,young,beautiful]
Tybalt: Devil [evil]
Mercutio: Diva [joker]
Capulet: Julieus Ceaser [king, lord]
Lady Capulet: Cleopatra [all buisness]
Paris: Astronot [well respected]

and now for the other version...

ha~its got the words at the bottom.. sorry thats kinda annoying.. but yea.. this version is amazing.. i love her bright blue eyes... soo pretty.. tho her boobs are poppiong out and rather LARGE for a "13 year old" TUCK THOSE LADIES IN~..though im trying to make myself believe its just the corset..

FINAL.. "DEATH" scene..
Version A (1968)

"When he shall die, take him and cut him out in little stars. And he shall make the face of Heaven so fine, that all the world will be in love with night, and pay no worship to the garish sun".


And in this one.. he actually SEES that shes alive just as the poison is about to set in... traGIC!! and hes crying the whole time.. and the flashbacks... BUT SO DIFFERENT THAN HOW SHAKESPEARE PICTURED IT...