Rough Day...

Ohhh mannnnnnn..
These kids..
One kid... he storms out of every class... he slams doors.. he walks away and hides.... he is VERY thirsty for attention. I find that i spend a LOT of time processing issues with him.. and it is ALWAYs the same issue... I sit down and talk with him, but he does ALL the talking.. and when i try to remind him that he is part of a group and is supposed to be with his group.. or he is missing class and that means his school points are going down, then he storms off again.. this time even further.. He also tends to be rather rough with other students.. even me. He gets my attention by grabbing the handle on top of the backpack (the med pack) and pulling me backward.. or placing his hand on my shoulder and pushing me until we are alone..... we are working on many many issues with him.. including talking him out of running away.
2 of the teachers were off today so chaos ensued. One kid from another cabin ran away so A LOT of the staff had to go running/walking/driving/4 wheeling all around to find him.. The police brought him back 5 hours later.
As a result, classes faltered due to there being no teachers and not enough staff to deal with the issues the kids were dealing with. I never got a break to pee or anything until 3. And i relished that break.
the lowest functioning kid here, its his birthday today.. and he still echos what everyone says.. which includes staff.. and we have to keep reminding him that he is NOT a staff member.
We had lunch clean up today.. everything went fine until the end (as usual) when a few were done and most were not. We had a couple storm outs.. i processed with them and then there was another freak out and i had to follow them and redirect them back to where the group was. Everyone wants to talk to Penny.. not Zack..
I guess thats flattering... that they all would rather talk to me and swear under their breath when it comes time for me to finally take a break.
I just want so badly to have fun with them... i let a few things slide.. but I am getting better, I sent a lot of them out of group for not following group process.. I managed to get them do what they did NOT want to do...
But i am still at a loss... because apparently.. we have the worst behaving group on campus (out of 3)
AND we are supposed to be representing Southeast Journeys at the Walk for Autism tomorrow. I'm not going to lie.. im kinda nervous taking them there.. with three of the kids entertaining the idea of running away... saying how much they hate this place...

on another note :)
I left last night at 10 and didnt get back until 6 this morning.. PARTLY to see if my co-staff could handle the kids at night and kick them out if they got too noisy.. partly because i needed some time with JP.. but i was soooo sleepy.. i ended up crashing at his place.. :) he bought me my favorite flavor ice cream to share.. :) No one has ever really done that for me before.. returning the constant favors i dole out to people.. Thats all i ask.. is for someone to care enough to take note of what I like and do something about it.. rather than accept all the things i give them with nothing to return...
ahh well.
OH!
Inapprorpates last night:
"Why do some people LIKE getting spanked?"
"Do girls like it better when a guy strokes or swirls down there?"
....
yep...
i think they ask a lot of these questions to get a reaction out of us..